Well it's been several weeks since my last blog and I could give a pile of reasons why, but I'm not going there. Today is a new day, and the present moment is what I have, and something awesome just happened to me which is worthy of sharing!
A couple of weeks ago, I applied to my bank for a new business account. I also requested a business credit card. They phoned me and approved the bank account application and the customer service representative informed me that someone from the credit department would get back to me about the credit card.
The first call I got said that my request had been denied. This outright astonished me because I know we have excellent credit and good credit scores. I requested that they take a second look and the representative stated they would resubmit the credit application.
In the meantime, while finalizing the bank account set-up with the account representative (not the credit card side of things), I was informed that I the credit card had been pre-approved for the amount I had requested and according to her computer I should receive it shortly in the mail.
I was a happy camper and left for my vacation with a smile on my face knowing that it would be easier to deal with the business side of things having the business account and credit card. On my return from vacation, all the paperwork was in the mail, along with a business platinum visa card -- or so I thought . . .
Also in the mail were two "reject" letters -- saying that my request for credit had been denied. But I ignored them thinking that I had a platinum card in my hand and knowing that the other representative had told me about the pre-approval.
Then yesterday, I received a telephone call from the credit card department which I returned a few minutes ago. I was a bit concerned when I was returning the call, but I decided I wasn't going to "go" into the land of "uh-oh what are they going to do to me now" . . . so I put a smile on my face, gave them the information they needed to pull up my account, and in my mind I focused on ALL IS WELL -- there is nothing to fear. (This is a little bit like being called into the principal's office, or later in life the boss's office and trying to believe that they are going to tell you something wonderful!).
However, here's the really great news -- the really great news is that all morning long -- way before I decided to return the phone call -- I had been practicing a Law of Attraction process taught by Esther and Jerry Hicks/Abraham known as the "Rampage of Appreciation" . . . for most of the few hours I had been up, I was appreciating whatever I could think of.
While swimming, I appreciated every part of my body, the pool, the people that kept the pool clean, the gym owners, etc. While showering, I appreciated the force and power of the water pounding my back, the delicious smell of my ginger body scrub, the roughness of my loofa, etc.
Then I moved my appreciation to my husband happily still asleep in our bed, and then onto my computer, and my new vision board musical screensaver, and the meditations I listened to and read.
So by the time I picked up the phone to call the bank I was feeling more positive than I had in days. However, when the customer service rep pulled up my information, my heat skipped a beat as she informed me that the reason for the call was to confirm that my credit card application HAD BEEN DENIED! AARRGGHHH!!! For a couple of moments there, I lost my mellow, but, was able to maintain a decent tone of voice while I asked to speak to a supervisor, someone who could explain why the application was denied. She hemmed and hawed for a moment but I was politely insistant and agreed to be put on hold.
NOW thank you for being patient because here's the MIRACLE!!!! Yes -- my first thoughts were "how can they do this to me"! But within just a fraction of a moment I caught myself! I remembered about appreciation. I remembered I have the power to change my thoughts and change my results. And so I started appreciating the credit card department. I appreciated that they were all doing their jobs to the best of their abilities. That part of their job was to protect the bank's investment and I could appreciate that. That she was polite and trying to help me and just doing her job. I could appreciate that. I appreciated that while I really WANTED the credit card and it would definitely make my life easer -- it really wasn't a death sentence if I didn't get it. I appreciated all the other ways I could manage to pay for things. I appreciated all the money I had in my accounts. I appreciated the beautiful blue sky I was looking at while I was on hold.
She came back on the line briefly at that point and said: "If you don't mind holding another moment, I'm trying to get your application back the PRE-APPROVAL status" . . . and I said " I don't mind holding at all and I appreciate your trying to help me!"
So I continued to appreciate anything I could remember -- the lovely beachfront massage I had in Puerta Vallarta last week for my anniversary, the gentle breeze that was coming through my office window, I even appreciated being able to appreciate!
A few moments later she came back on the line. This time she said "We've re-set your status to the pre-approval limit and all I need you to do is sign the credit agreement -- is there a number I can fax that to you now?" . . .
Well -- you can imagine the size of the grin on my face, along with the tears in my eyes. Not because they agreed to give me the credit card -- though of course I certainly DO appreciate that. No -- the WAYYYY BIGGER PICTURE is that I know I CREATED that answer by being conscious enough to change my attitude and focus my energy and vibrations on the positive. I believed I had the power to change the bank's mind, and I did -- by aligning with the good the Universe is always wanting to provide for me.
These sort of manifestations are happening to me more and more and I have been asking for them. Yes, I still feel a lot of fear a lot of the time. But every time I can change my thoughts and the emotions behind those thoughts . . . well, the miracles just keep falling from the sky -- large and small. (Two days ago I manifested a great, quiet booth in a very busy restaurant, with no waiting in the middle of the dinner hour and a great waitress too!).
I wanted to write this so that I would remember how good this feels. Because, the next time I go on a Rampage of Appreciation -- I'm adding THIS event to my list!
Namaste,
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
The Great Mystery
Interesting this thing called life eh? One moment you feel safe, comfortable and happy, and another you feel that you are an alien on a planet far far away - or at the very least obviously your body, mind and spirit have been taken over by aliens! : )
For the past few weeks I've been struggling (though I HATE using that word) with fear and doubt. Not trusting myself, not loving myself, and being harshly critical of myself (and others no doubt!). Yes, I have prayed, and prayed, and yes, I have changed my thoughts over and over and over again and yes, that has helped . . . a lot probably.
But still the nagging annoying little bugs kept biting me and I kept scratching. That was the best I could do. Choose again. And Again. And again! Get mad at myself. Choose again. Feel good for a little while. Crap! another bite! another scratch! Damn the cycle!
Yet it is that very cycle that moves us forward. If we just allow it (which I actually did try some of the time), then it provides useful information -- and that usually is that we are not operating from our Highest Self. That is very useful information. Thank you Ego! Because that helps me choose again, and again, and again . . . and yes, again!
Choosing again is what moves me forward eventually out of the darkness. I wasn't really in a dark place -- I am fortunately able to see my blessings most of the time -- so I haven't been in that deep dark pit for nearly 4 years now. No desire to go back either! Been there done that and have a closet full of t-shirts gathered over years and years.
But still, even while counting my blessings, I sometimes find my thoughts are like the fog -- one moment I can see clearly, the next not a foot in front of me, and the next, well maybe I'm OK if I just follow those tailights. The thing is I keep going. And that's God's grace for me. The Grace to choose again, even when I can't see clearly what is in front of me. Inch by inch.
And then, suddenly, I'm, back into the warm sunlight and blue skies. A big sigh . . . whooosh. . I'm home again. I'm safe. I'm in the Light. Of course I was safe all the time, and the Light was there all the time . . . it was just that I couldn't quite see it.
Oh yes -- I definitely prefer a sunny clear day and today -- that's what I have so I am enjoying THIS moment. And yet, still grateful for that fog because it helped me remember how grateful I am for the sunshine.
Namaste,
For the past few weeks I've been struggling (though I HATE using that word) with fear and doubt. Not trusting myself, not loving myself, and being harshly critical of myself (and others no doubt!). Yes, I have prayed, and prayed, and yes, I have changed my thoughts over and over and over again and yes, that has helped . . . a lot probably.
But still the nagging annoying little bugs kept biting me and I kept scratching. That was the best I could do. Choose again. And Again. And again! Get mad at myself. Choose again. Feel good for a little while. Crap! another bite! another scratch! Damn the cycle!
Yet it is that very cycle that moves us forward. If we just allow it (which I actually did try some of the time), then it provides useful information -- and that usually is that we are not operating from our Highest Self. That is very useful information. Thank you Ego! Because that helps me choose again, and again, and again . . . and yes, again!
Choosing again is what moves me forward eventually out of the darkness. I wasn't really in a dark place -- I am fortunately able to see my blessings most of the time -- so I haven't been in that deep dark pit for nearly 4 years now. No desire to go back either! Been there done that and have a closet full of t-shirts gathered over years and years.
But still, even while counting my blessings, I sometimes find my thoughts are like the fog -- one moment I can see clearly, the next not a foot in front of me, and the next, well maybe I'm OK if I just follow those tailights. The thing is I keep going. And that's God's grace for me. The Grace to choose again, even when I can't see clearly what is in front of me. Inch by inch.
And then, suddenly, I'm, back into the warm sunlight and blue skies. A big sigh . . . whooosh. . I'm home again. I'm safe. I'm in the Light. Of course I was safe all the time, and the Light was there all the time . . . it was just that I couldn't quite see it.
Oh yes -- I definitely prefer a sunny clear day and today -- that's what I have so I am enjoying THIS moment. And yet, still grateful for that fog because it helped me remember how grateful I am for the sunshine.
Namaste,
Thursday, March 6, 2008
INTERESTING
This is not one of my better mornings so far. Why? Because those old friends DOUBT and FEAR appear to be visiting again. I've asked these visitors to not visit on countless occasions. Other times I tried welcoming them in and trying to have a reasonable chat, get to know them better, understand what function they serve me. Other times, I've simply ignored the doorbell ringing, changed my mind to a more pleasant thought. On other occasions, I've ignored the doorbell and gone swimming or gone on to some task that needed completing that I knew I would feel good about it when it was done.
I guess that last option is what I'm choosing at the moment. I AM moving forward with this project. It is quite a roller coaster ride though and I don't usually choose to go on roller-coasters -- in fact I generally avoid them at all costs. But here I am.
And I'm not a victim, I'm a volunteer. I wrote an affirmation a few weeks ago that "I BOLDLY RIDE THE WAVE OF WONDER CONFIDENT OF GOD's GUIDING HAND." I was a having a better morning when I wrote that. Today it feels more like I "timidly" ride the wave of wonder "praying desperately to feel" God's Guiding Hand. Yet even as I write these very words, I do know, 10000% that God's Guiding Hand is right there. I just have to reach out and accept it. Just put my hand in His. Just allow Him to guide me on this thrill ride. Just trust that as I hold His Hand, His Grace will take care of my squeamish stomach and the Voices of Doom trying to grab my attention in my head.
So here I go --- God --- here's my hand. Oh Thank You! Thank you for taking it without asking any questions. Thank you for holding me tight without asking me to pass a test. Thank you for being willing to guide me even though I don't think I'm doing it "good enough" . . . hell, I don't have a clue what "good enough" would be -- you see God -- I've never been here before! I know You know that. You also know that many times in the past, when I experienced the feeling of "new" it usually followed with a big ole disappointment. Or maybe a punishment, or a slap on the face -- literally or figuratively. You see God -- (I know You know but thank's for listening anyway) . . . "new" got tied up with "bad" somehow in my mind. And I think it happened a lot when I was very small and didn't have the skills to logic or reason it out and to understand that everyone was doing the best they could -- including me.
Now God -- as You hold my hand . . . I'm remembering some other times. Some really really wonderful times. When "new" meant "exciting" and "magical". Like the first time I went on a cruise. That was new. I remember my friend driving me to the port and suddenly as we turned a corner on the hill, we looked down and there was this GIGANTIC ship parked at the dock waiting for me! I couldn't believe how big it was! (and that was a lot considering how ships have grown in the past 20+ years). You know what else I remember God? I remember meeting my (now) husband for the first time. I was scared and excited all at the same time and never knew that that many butterflies could live inside my stomach!
So maybe God, just maybe, do you think that's what's going on with me right now? I'm just scared and excited all at the same time? This wonderful new project is taking me to places I've longed to be. I know You know how much I'm enjoying having time to read and learn more about Spirit, Creative Manifesting, Law of Attracting and prayer. I know You must also know how relieved I am not to have to be working at my former job -- forcing myself to do the tasks that were required of me --- God I do tell You THANK YOU often during the day because now I get to CHOOSE what comes next in my day -- or at least most days. What a blessing God -- Thank you soooo much!
And You are still holding my hand God -- I feel You. It feels warm and safe and strong. I know You won't let go of me. I know I just sometimes forget and let my hand slip away. I appreciate your letting me ramble like this, but I also know that it usually helps when I listen to You. So . . . I'm all ears God . . . what do you most want me to know in this moment?
Precious Child of Mine: What I want you to know most is how pleased I am that we are having this conversation . . . . and that you, despite your doubts, are going to publish this conversation. The emotion you are feeling is relief -- because you DO know that you can call on My strength and the strength of all my angelic helpers at any time. And of course that is true for all who read this and all who don't. Your willingness to ride this Wave of Wonder as you describe it encourages and inspires others to move out of their comfort zones. When a person goes into their personal "great beyond" . . . it not only expands that person's Universe, but it also expands the Universe in which you participate. When you allow new experiences, new emotions, new thought patterns to be born, you create space for My Work and for yours. It's like that old example of clearing out the closet -- you suddenly make space and a few months later -- you look back in the closet and realize it is filled up again -- but this time with new things. The newness keps you alive. The newness stretches you (new thoughts as opposed to new things). That space is then able to be filled with your Heart's Desires -- your True Intention.
Your True Intention is to introduce as many people as possible to a relationship with a Power Greater Than themselves. Your life has been transformed by your willingness to communicate with Me, which some people call Prayer. By allowing yourself to stay present, in this moment, and to feel your feelings -- even the ones that you call "scared" . . . you in effect, "clear your closet" and make space for Divine Ideas. This is true for everyone reading or not reading this.
For now Child, simply remember that our hands are joined -- even when you think you have pulled away. Grace holds our hands together when you think you have slipped away. You need not continue questioning whether this project has merit or is worthwhile. When you look deep into your heart -- you know it was conceived through your communion with Me. That is a fact -- do not continue to disturb yourself with questions. Just give yourself permission to feel what it is you are feeling and choose again. In that next moment, that next choice -- by your willingness to remember that you have the ability to choose --- you allow Me to re-enter your consciousness. And then, with a deep breath, and a huge sigh of relief . . . you will again know that All is Truly Well. Go in Peace My Child and All who read this . . . you are all very loved.
Thank You God. And so it is.
I guess that last option is what I'm choosing at the moment. I AM moving forward with this project. It is quite a roller coaster ride though and I don't usually choose to go on roller-coasters -- in fact I generally avoid them at all costs. But here I am.
And I'm not a victim, I'm a volunteer. I wrote an affirmation a few weeks ago that "I BOLDLY RIDE THE WAVE OF WONDER CONFIDENT OF GOD's GUIDING HAND." I was a having a better morning when I wrote that. Today it feels more like I "timidly" ride the wave of wonder "praying desperately to feel" God's Guiding Hand. Yet even as I write these very words, I do know, 10000% that God's Guiding Hand is right there. I just have to reach out and accept it. Just put my hand in His. Just allow Him to guide me on this thrill ride. Just trust that as I hold His Hand, His Grace will take care of my squeamish stomach and the Voices of Doom trying to grab my attention in my head.
So here I go --- God --- here's my hand. Oh Thank You! Thank you for taking it without asking any questions. Thank you for holding me tight without asking me to pass a test. Thank you for being willing to guide me even though I don't think I'm doing it "good enough" . . . hell, I don't have a clue what "good enough" would be -- you see God -- I've never been here before! I know You know that. You also know that many times in the past, when I experienced the feeling of "new" it usually followed with a big ole disappointment. Or maybe a punishment, or a slap on the face -- literally or figuratively. You see God -- (I know You know but thank's for listening anyway) . . . "new" got tied up with "bad" somehow in my mind. And I think it happened a lot when I was very small and didn't have the skills to logic or reason it out and to understand that everyone was doing the best they could -- including me.
Now God -- as You hold my hand . . . I'm remembering some other times. Some really really wonderful times. When "new" meant "exciting" and "magical". Like the first time I went on a cruise. That was new. I remember my friend driving me to the port and suddenly as we turned a corner on the hill, we looked down and there was this GIGANTIC ship parked at the dock waiting for me! I couldn't believe how big it was! (and that was a lot considering how ships have grown in the past 20+ years). You know what else I remember God? I remember meeting my (now) husband for the first time. I was scared and excited all at the same time and never knew that that many butterflies could live inside my stomach!
So maybe God, just maybe, do you think that's what's going on with me right now? I'm just scared and excited all at the same time? This wonderful new project is taking me to places I've longed to be. I know You know how much I'm enjoying having time to read and learn more about Spirit, Creative Manifesting, Law of Attracting and prayer. I know You must also know how relieved I am not to have to be working at my former job -- forcing myself to do the tasks that were required of me --- God I do tell You THANK YOU often during the day because now I get to CHOOSE what comes next in my day -- or at least most days. What a blessing God -- Thank you soooo much!
And You are still holding my hand God -- I feel You. It feels warm and safe and strong. I know You won't let go of me. I know I just sometimes forget and let my hand slip away. I appreciate your letting me ramble like this, but I also know that it usually helps when I listen to You. So . . . I'm all ears God . . . what do you most want me to know in this moment?
Precious Child of Mine: What I want you to know most is how pleased I am that we are having this conversation . . . . and that you, despite your doubts, are going to publish this conversation. The emotion you are feeling is relief -- because you DO know that you can call on My strength and the strength of all my angelic helpers at any time. And of course that is true for all who read this and all who don't. Your willingness to ride this Wave of Wonder as you describe it encourages and inspires others to move out of their comfort zones. When a person goes into their personal "great beyond" . . . it not only expands that person's Universe, but it also expands the Universe in which you participate. When you allow new experiences, new emotions, new thought patterns to be born, you create space for My Work and for yours. It's like that old example of clearing out the closet -- you suddenly make space and a few months later -- you look back in the closet and realize it is filled up again -- but this time with new things. The newness keps you alive. The newness stretches you (new thoughts as opposed to new things). That space is then able to be filled with your Heart's Desires -- your True Intention.
Your True Intention is to introduce as many people as possible to a relationship with a Power Greater Than themselves. Your life has been transformed by your willingness to communicate with Me, which some people call Prayer. By allowing yourself to stay present, in this moment, and to feel your feelings -- even the ones that you call "scared" . . . you in effect, "clear your closet" and make space for Divine Ideas. This is true for everyone reading or not reading this.
For now Child, simply remember that our hands are joined -- even when you think you have pulled away. Grace holds our hands together when you think you have slipped away. You need not continue questioning whether this project has merit or is worthwhile. When you look deep into your heart -- you know it was conceived through your communion with Me. That is a fact -- do not continue to disturb yourself with questions. Just give yourself permission to feel what it is you are feeling and choose again. In that next moment, that next choice -- by your willingness to remember that you have the ability to choose --- you allow Me to re-enter your consciousness. And then, with a deep breath, and a huge sigh of relief . . . you will again know that All is Truly Well. Go in Peace My Child and All who read this . . . you are all very loved.
Thank You God. And so it is.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
A LONG TIME
Well it has been far longer than I had anticipated since my last blog. A million excuses and reasons but none of them really matter and pretty much all can be summed up in one word FEAR. The worst thing about FEAR is that it paralyzes you even when you know it! I knew I was afraid, I knew I was afraid to admit I was afraid, and still I was AFRAID! Well, for this moment, I'm not and I want to share.
It has been quite hectic in my life since I made the decision to leave my job. My last two weeks at the firm were astonishingly wonderful but jam packed because I wanted so much to leave my desk in good shape for my bosses and for my replacement. More blessings came with the firm's decision to move one of my friends and a fellow secretary to my desk. It was a win-win situation for all involved for many many reasons and it gave me a sense of security to know that everyone was pleased with the re-assignment. My HR Manager could not have been more supportive, as were my many friends and my boss. It was a very emotional time for me on many levels.
A week after my last day, my father-in-law arrived from England for his first visit to us since we have been living here. That was another hectic but wonderful week, as my husband and I showed him all of our favorite spots which included the many magnificent recreational areas and national parks we have within a couple of hours drive from here. It was absolutely awesome to see my husband so excited about being with his Dad, and overall the week exceeded ALL of our expectations, including my sister-in-law back in the UK who lived vicariously through my regular emails about our various comings and goings!
So now, here I am, beginning to settle into this new chapter. Yesterday, I was finally able to sit down and focus clearly enough to develop a schedule and a work plan. As a legal secretary, I knew what was expected of me when I was at work, but in this new position, I didn't have that security and that was part of what frightened me. So yesterday, I developed a framework to guide me through the day. I incorporated all the aspects of life that are important to me -- this new business of course, but also continuing development of my spirit, managing household chores, and time for FUN and relaxation. How awesome is that to be able to design your own day! An enormous blessing that surpasses words.
One of the things I scheduled in was meditation time. Today I did a mind-blowing meditation courtesy of Shelly Dressel at http://www.goddesslight.net/. If you are "into" channelling, Shelly channels the "Goddess of Creation" which is an amazing, loving, nurturing energy. The Goddess of Creation invites you to participate in an inward journey to your own divinity with the Goddess acting as your guide. It may be a bit "out there" for some, and to tell you the truth, I have to be in a certain state of mind to be receptive of the energy -- but when I am --WOWIE ZOWIE am I ever transported and I sure was this morning! Check it out if you have any interest at all. There is also a link to Shelly's website on my USEFUL LINKS page of my website at http://www.prayerworksbecause.com/.
So I guess that leads me perfectly into the subject I have been focusing on for a while now. I have been literally "growing" the idea of expanding what I believe is possible. Having BIGGER dreams, BIGGER ideas, BIGGER goals. Thinking WAY PAST my comfort zone or my previous ideas. BIG like Oprah big! Can you imagine -- Oprah had a simple idea, to encourage people to reading which is why she started her book club. Now, with her latest book club offering, she had an idea to encourage people to expand their consciousness with the selection of Eckert Tolle's A NEW EARTH. She had another GI0NORMOUS idea and created an online webclass which included 500,000 people last night! Now that's B I G!
So I invite all of you to pause for just a moment while you are reading this and just for a minute -- think about YOUR biggest idea / dream / thought. Don't censor it in any way and for God's sake do NOT listen to any voices (in your head) that may tell you "ha ha ha -- how the hell do you think THAT could happen!" --- if you do hear that voice/s -- just thank them for sharing and say "I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THAT MIRACLES ARE POSSIBLE NOW!" . . . . and bask in that feeling. And if you like that feeling --- return to that thought a few times throughout the day / the week / the month. And if it feels good to you and want to share your experience, write to me at news@prayerworksbecause.com.
I believe that every time one of us thinks REALLY BIG, that just like saying a prayer, it sends out a thousand beams of light that expand the consciousness of our world. Marianne Williamson says that a miracle is simply a shift in consciousness. I think dreaming BIGGER dreams counts and I'm gonna keep practicing! I hope you'll join me!
Namaste,
Steph
It has been quite hectic in my life since I made the decision to leave my job. My last two weeks at the firm were astonishingly wonderful but jam packed because I wanted so much to leave my desk in good shape for my bosses and for my replacement. More blessings came with the firm's decision to move one of my friends and a fellow secretary to my desk. It was a win-win situation for all involved for many many reasons and it gave me a sense of security to know that everyone was pleased with the re-assignment. My HR Manager could not have been more supportive, as were my many friends and my boss. It was a very emotional time for me on many levels.
A week after my last day, my father-in-law arrived from England for his first visit to us since we have been living here. That was another hectic but wonderful week, as my husband and I showed him all of our favorite spots which included the many magnificent recreational areas and national parks we have within a couple of hours drive from here. It was absolutely awesome to see my husband so excited about being with his Dad, and overall the week exceeded ALL of our expectations, including my sister-in-law back in the UK who lived vicariously through my regular emails about our various comings and goings!
So now, here I am, beginning to settle into this new chapter. Yesterday, I was finally able to sit down and focus clearly enough to develop a schedule and a work plan. As a legal secretary, I knew what was expected of me when I was at work, but in this new position, I didn't have that security and that was part of what frightened me. So yesterday, I developed a framework to guide me through the day. I incorporated all the aspects of life that are important to me -- this new business of course, but also continuing development of my spirit, managing household chores, and time for FUN and relaxation. How awesome is that to be able to design your own day! An enormous blessing that surpasses words.
One of the things I scheduled in was meditation time. Today I did a mind-blowing meditation courtesy of Shelly Dressel at http://www.goddesslight.net/. If you are "into" channelling, Shelly channels the "Goddess of Creation" which is an amazing, loving, nurturing energy. The Goddess of Creation invites you to participate in an inward journey to your own divinity with the Goddess acting as your guide. It may be a bit "out there" for some, and to tell you the truth, I have to be in a certain state of mind to be receptive of the energy -- but when I am --WOWIE ZOWIE am I ever transported and I sure was this morning! Check it out if you have any interest at all. There is also a link to Shelly's website on my USEFUL LINKS page of my website at http://www.prayerworksbecause.com/.
So I guess that leads me perfectly into the subject I have been focusing on for a while now. I have been literally "growing" the idea of expanding what I believe is possible. Having BIGGER dreams, BIGGER ideas, BIGGER goals. Thinking WAY PAST my comfort zone or my previous ideas. BIG like Oprah big! Can you imagine -- Oprah had a simple idea, to encourage people to reading which is why she started her book club. Now, with her latest book club offering, she had an idea to encourage people to expand their consciousness with the selection of Eckert Tolle's A NEW EARTH. She had another GI0NORMOUS idea and created an online webclass which included 500,000 people last night! Now that's B I G!
So I invite all of you to pause for just a moment while you are reading this and just for a minute -- think about YOUR biggest idea / dream / thought. Don't censor it in any way and for God's sake do NOT listen to any voices (in your head) that may tell you "ha ha ha -- how the hell do you think THAT could happen!" --- if you do hear that voice/s -- just thank them for sharing and say "I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THAT MIRACLES ARE POSSIBLE NOW!" . . . . and bask in that feeling. And if you like that feeling --- return to that thought a few times throughout the day / the week / the month. And if it feels good to you and want to share your experience, write to me at news@prayerworksbecause.com.
I believe that every time one of us thinks REALLY BIG, that just like saying a prayer, it sends out a thousand beams of light that expand the consciousness of our world. Marianne Williamson says that a miracle is simply a shift in consciousness. I think dreaming BIGGER dreams counts and I'm gonna keep practicing! I hope you'll join me!
Namaste,
Steph
Monday, February 4, 2008
TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!
Well it's been an amazing week and my emotions have been all over the place. When I last posted, I was excited but fairly full of anxiety about giving my notice at work so that I could devote full time to my book I BELIEVE PRAYER WORKS BECAUSE . . . (www.prayerworksbecause.com).
It was awesome how smoothly everything went. The HR Manager at the firm was extremely supportive and shared a wonderful story about her father making his dream happen (which involved convincing the National Diabetes Association to pair with Harley Davidson for fund-raising!). Both of my bosses were supportive and my friends and colleagues at work have really touched me with their genuine expressions of optimism and support for the project.
Today, I reached another milestone that I want to document. As I continually mention, in order for the book to become a reality, people need to submit / share their personal stories about prayer working for good in their lives. Therefore it is paramount to get the word out to as many people as possible and one of the avenues is a Nevada holistic newspaper called IN LIGHT TIMES. Their publication date for March is just around the corner and I made it my highest priority this week to get in touch with them.
On my lunch break at work, I finally made contact with the editor! Unfortunately, she has been difficult to reach because she has been experiencing some health challenges with her kidneys. (Please pray for her -- she is now in the process of getting on the national donor list.) I discussed the project with her, obtained the pricing for the ads I wished to place, and received the information she would need to proceed with the ads and a 150 word article about my project.
The price was higher than I expected -- but then I really had nothing to base my expectations on. Despite that I felt really excited about the prospect of seeing word of the project IN PRINT and I liked the idea of having a professional design the ad. But still, I wanted to be sure I was not acting in haste, nor in my ego. This project was initiated by Divine Creation and it is my intention to proceed in all steps for the Highest Good of All Concerned.
So, as I was driving down the 6 levels of the office parking lot tonight to head home, I said a quick prayer and asked God to make it perfectly clear to me whether this idea was Divinely Inspired. I asked to feel 100% positive about it if it was right and ended my prayer as I most often do with "Thy Will Not Mine Be Done" thank you God.
I then proceeded to exit the parking lot and make my turn onto the street leading me towards the freeway and at the same began placing a call to one of my close friends to discuss the pros and cons of the advertising. For some reason, the call took a very long time to ring through and while paused at a red light, I suddenly took note of the license plate of the car immediately ahead of me. It read BLSSEDGD. I read that as BLESSED GOD and started laughing to myself!! Was that a clear sign or what!!! My friend then came on the line, and I told her what had just happened and she started laughing too! She said "guess that's your answer as clear as can be!" And I said yes, now I don't need to talk to you!
On that note I will end this posting so that I can go work on my article and ad! Be sure to pick up the March issue of IN LIGHT TIMES or check it out on the web at http://www.inlightimes.com/!
Namaste,
It was awesome how smoothly everything went. The HR Manager at the firm was extremely supportive and shared a wonderful story about her father making his dream happen (which involved convincing the National Diabetes Association to pair with Harley Davidson for fund-raising!). Both of my bosses were supportive and my friends and colleagues at work have really touched me with their genuine expressions of optimism and support for the project.
Today, I reached another milestone that I want to document. As I continually mention, in order for the book to become a reality, people need to submit / share their personal stories about prayer working for good in their lives. Therefore it is paramount to get the word out to as many people as possible and one of the avenues is a Nevada holistic newspaper called IN LIGHT TIMES. Their publication date for March is just around the corner and I made it my highest priority this week to get in touch with them.
On my lunch break at work, I finally made contact with the editor! Unfortunately, she has been difficult to reach because she has been experiencing some health challenges with her kidneys. (Please pray for her -- she is now in the process of getting on the national donor list.) I discussed the project with her, obtained the pricing for the ads I wished to place, and received the information she would need to proceed with the ads and a 150 word article about my project.
The price was higher than I expected -- but then I really had nothing to base my expectations on. Despite that I felt really excited about the prospect of seeing word of the project IN PRINT and I liked the idea of having a professional design the ad. But still, I wanted to be sure I was not acting in haste, nor in my ego. This project was initiated by Divine Creation and it is my intention to proceed in all steps for the Highest Good of All Concerned.
So, as I was driving down the 6 levels of the office parking lot tonight to head home, I said a quick prayer and asked God to make it perfectly clear to me whether this idea was Divinely Inspired. I asked to feel 100% positive about it if it was right and ended my prayer as I most often do with "Thy Will Not Mine Be Done" thank you God.
I then proceeded to exit the parking lot and make my turn onto the street leading me towards the freeway and at the same began placing a call to one of my close friends to discuss the pros and cons of the advertising. For some reason, the call took a very long time to ring through and while paused at a red light, I suddenly took note of the license plate of the car immediately ahead of me. It read BLSSEDGD. I read that as BLESSED GOD and started laughing to myself!! Was that a clear sign or what!!! My friend then came on the line, and I told her what had just happened and she started laughing too! She said "guess that's your answer as clear as can be!" And I said yes, now I don't need to talk to you!
On that note I will end this posting so that I can go work on my article and ad! Be sure to pick up the March issue of IN LIGHT TIMES or check it out on the web at http://www.inlightimes.com/!
Namaste,
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
LOOK MA I CAN FLY!!! OH MY GOD! NOW WHAT?
Well, here I am feeling guilty that it has been over 2 weeks since I last posted. A busy 2 weeks to say the least. But guilt is not a feeling I choose to indulge in once I become aware so away I go.
Today, I will be telling my office manager that I am resigning from my current position as a legal secretary. When I write it it sounds so simple and straightforward! However, my body is giving me LOTS of indications that I am not FEELING it is straightforward and simple. I woke up during the night with a massive headache (I don't get headaches) for one thing which I still have. Even after my swim and an extra long soak and stretch in the jacuzzi, my muscles still feel like clenched fists. Oh -- and every now and then I have to remind myself to breathe because I suddenly realize I am out of breath!
I am choosing to release this full-time job so that I can devote my full-time energies to my new book project -- I BELIEVE PRAYER WORKS BECAUSE . . . . (www.prayerworksbecause.com). It's a project I have consciously created using spiritual principles I have used and finally have the courage to put into action. It's a project that is deeply close to my heart, that I believe in, that makes my heart sing when I think about it. Most of all it is an opportunity to potentially bring comfort, hope and inspiration to someone who is feeling like their world is bottoming out and no one gives a damn. I KNOW THAT FEELING! And it is a driving force within me to do whatever I can do to offer a just a moment of comfort and hope which may be all that is needed so that despair doesn't get too firm a grip.
Wildly exciting and yet -- here I am frankly terrified. The voices say:
"How dare you quit a good job and think you can do THIS?"
"What makes you think you can make a go of THIS business -- you've failed miserably 3 times before!"
"Do you know the odds of your book being successfull?"
"Just how in hell do you think you are going to pull this off?"
I have to admit, despite everything I've learned, the human part of me believes at least SOME of what those voices are saying. But that's when I have to remember something vitally important:
The HUMAN part of me is not the GREATER part of me! The GREATER part of me is a Divine Child of a Loving God! It is "my Father's good pleasure to give me the kingdom"! REALLY! I remember that according to the Law of Attraction -- I have a fortune of good amassed in my Vibrational Escrow and as long as I align with that -- my good will flow to me. And that good includes FEELING good in THIS moment.
Feeling good in THIS moment! Wow! What a concept! Simply choosing that IN THIS MOMENT, I align with the Divine and I feel GRRRRRRRREAT! (Can any of you 50-somethings hear Tony-the-Tiger roar there? : )
I've spent a lot of this life feeling like shit. Condemning myself for being fat, for being too loud, too smart, too smart-assed! Feeling guilty about not being able to change, about hurting people I care about, well the list could be endless but I've made my point I think.
Here's the capital "T" Truth as I choose to look at it IN THIS MOMENT:
I am a Divine Child of a Loving God and it IS my Father's good pleasure to give me the Kingdom. (I needed to repeat that for the human part of me.) I believe I am divinely guided and I will always take the right turn of the road. (It will always be the "right" turn because I will learn from it and every turn is an opportunity for growth and expansion.) I am in awe that this moment is here now and present in my life. I am filled with gratitude that somehow, someway, I have managed to get HERE, in this time and this space, and with these resources, and with this knowledge -- to actually DO this!
I am so blessed.
Namaste,
Today, I will be telling my office manager that I am resigning from my current position as a legal secretary. When I write it it sounds so simple and straightforward! However, my body is giving me LOTS of indications that I am not FEELING it is straightforward and simple. I woke up during the night with a massive headache (I don't get headaches) for one thing which I still have. Even after my swim and an extra long soak and stretch in the jacuzzi, my muscles still feel like clenched fists. Oh -- and every now and then I have to remind myself to breathe because I suddenly realize I am out of breath!
I am choosing to release this full-time job so that I can devote my full-time energies to my new book project -- I BELIEVE PRAYER WORKS BECAUSE . . . . (www.prayerworksbecause.com). It's a project I have consciously created using spiritual principles I have used and finally have the courage to put into action. It's a project that is deeply close to my heart, that I believe in, that makes my heart sing when I think about it. Most of all it is an opportunity to potentially bring comfort, hope and inspiration to someone who is feeling like their world is bottoming out and no one gives a damn. I KNOW THAT FEELING! And it is a driving force within me to do whatever I can do to offer a just a moment of comfort and hope which may be all that is needed so that despair doesn't get too firm a grip.
Wildly exciting and yet -- here I am frankly terrified. The voices say:
"How dare you quit a good job and think you can do THIS?"
"What makes you think you can make a go of THIS business -- you've failed miserably 3 times before!"
"Do you know the odds of your book being successfull?"
"Just how in hell do you think you are going to pull this off?"
I have to admit, despite everything I've learned, the human part of me believes at least SOME of what those voices are saying. But that's when I have to remember something vitally important:
The HUMAN part of me is not the GREATER part of me! The GREATER part of me is a Divine Child of a Loving God! It is "my Father's good pleasure to give me the kingdom"! REALLY! I remember that according to the Law of Attraction -- I have a fortune of good amassed in my Vibrational Escrow and as long as I align with that -- my good will flow to me. And that good includes FEELING good in THIS moment.
Feeling good in THIS moment! Wow! What a concept! Simply choosing that IN THIS MOMENT, I align with the Divine and I feel GRRRRRRRREAT! (Can any of you 50-somethings hear Tony-the-Tiger roar there? : )
I've spent a lot of this life feeling like shit. Condemning myself for being fat, for being too loud, too smart, too smart-assed! Feeling guilty about not being able to change, about hurting people I care about, well the list could be endless but I've made my point I think.
Here's the capital "T" Truth as I choose to look at it IN THIS MOMENT:
I am a Divine Child of a Loving God and it IS my Father's good pleasure to give me the Kingdom. (I needed to repeat that for the human part of me.) I believe I am divinely guided and I will always take the right turn of the road. (It will always be the "right" turn because I will learn from it and every turn is an opportunity for growth and expansion.) I am in awe that this moment is here now and present in my life. I am filled with gratitude that somehow, someway, I have managed to get HERE, in this time and this space, and with these resources, and with this knowledge -- to actually DO this!
I am so blessed.
Namaste,
Thursday, January 10, 2008
GOD IS WATCHING ME (sung by The Divine Miss M)
GOD IS WATCHING ME AND ALL IS WELL! A little harder to believe today I have to admit. I've had some wonderful encouraging "atta-girl" responses to my first newsletter, and now 36 hours later the excitement has worn off. I re-read my posting from Launch Day and it helped a lot. When I'm tired and achy it's harder to remember all that positivity isn't it!
But that's where faith and trust and practice come in. Here's what I'm telling myself in this moment. I have a CHOICE! I can choose to give into the feelings of lethargy, and almost sadness (the letdown after the excitement), and fear that no one will contribute a story and the book will die before it is even born.
OR
I can choose a whole different line of thinking. My choice. I have the POWER WITHIN ME to make that choice. I can vibrate anything I want. Anything I consciously CHOOSE. So what's it going to be girl? Hunh? What's it going to be? (Now I'm hearing a commercial on HGTV in my head! : )
Well here's what its going to be --
I CHOOSE FAITH! I CHOOSE LIGHT!! I CHOOSE GOD!! I CHOOSE ANGELS! I CHOOSE PEACE! I CHOOSE JOY!!
I choose to believe that it is TRUE that it IS "My Father's Good Pleasure to Give Me The Kingdom!" I choose to believe what I wrote 2 days ago in the prayer on the website (http://www.prayerworksbecause.com/) is true. God did not give me this idea and then vanish into the night. I choose to believe that if He gave me this idea -- He does indeed give me everything I need to bring it to fruition for the Highest Good of All Concerned. And if I take that as a truth -- then I choose to be patient (aarrggghhhhhhhhh!) and go on about my business.
One of the things I find most helpful when I find myself dwelling in stagnant waters is to choose a different subject to think about it ---- of course ideally one that makes me feel better!
So I have lots of good stuff in my life to choose at the moment, including my upcoming birthday celebration which is an annual cruise to the Caribbean. Now that's something totally wonderful that I can switch my attention to isn't it!! I have packing to think about, last minute paperwork, and more fun that that I can look forward to seeing our friends that will be joining us.
It's quite wonderful really --- 4 years ago on my 50th b-day, life was totally sucky for me and I do mean at the bottom of the barrel --- my marriage seemed to be imploding, as did my teenage daughter and I was feeling at my honest to God lowest low of all time.
However, I had planned on taking a cruise for my 50th, and I went forward with it and what a blessing that turned out to be in more ways than one. There's lots more to tell about that story, but to keep it anywhere close to the point of this posting -- I was assigned to a dinner table of 7 other people who were also traveling alone.
As it turned out, we all became fast friends the first night and hung out together for the rest of the cruise. Three of us even managed to stay aboard a second week due to a very special deal that Holland America offered the last few days of the first cruise. Well the upshot of all that is that my two friends Andy from Canada, and Clausie from Germany have stayed in very close touch and this upcoming cruise will the 4th birthday cruise I have shared with them AND the last 3 my husband has rounded out the party I am very happy to report!. A few other folks from some of the other 3 cruises will be joining us, in addition to some "newbies" but we all know we will have a ball and make some wonderful new memories to add to our scrapbooks!
So on that note I will end -- since I feel better and also need to get ready for work! See --- it really is that simple to change a thought -- and by doing that now, this morning, I can be very confident that the rest of my day will go a whole lot easier than it might have!
Thanks for listening! : )
Blessings, and
NAMASTE
But that's where faith and trust and practice come in. Here's what I'm telling myself in this moment. I have a CHOICE! I can choose to give into the feelings of lethargy, and almost sadness (the letdown after the excitement), and fear that no one will contribute a story and the book will die before it is even born.
OR
I can choose a whole different line of thinking. My choice. I have the POWER WITHIN ME to make that choice. I can vibrate anything I want. Anything I consciously CHOOSE. So what's it going to be girl? Hunh? What's it going to be? (Now I'm hearing a commercial on HGTV in my head! : )
Well here's what its going to be --
I CHOOSE FAITH! I CHOOSE LIGHT!! I CHOOSE GOD!! I CHOOSE ANGELS! I CHOOSE PEACE! I CHOOSE JOY!!
I choose to believe that it is TRUE that it IS "My Father's Good Pleasure to Give Me The Kingdom!" I choose to believe what I wrote 2 days ago in the prayer on the website (http://www.prayerworksbecause.com/) is true. God did not give me this idea and then vanish into the night. I choose to believe that if He gave me this idea -- He does indeed give me everything I need to bring it to fruition for the Highest Good of All Concerned. And if I take that as a truth -- then I choose to be patient (aarrggghhhhhhhhh!) and go on about my business.
One of the things I find most helpful when I find myself dwelling in stagnant waters is to choose a different subject to think about it ---- of course ideally one that makes me feel better!
So I have lots of good stuff in my life to choose at the moment, including my upcoming birthday celebration which is an annual cruise to the Caribbean. Now that's something totally wonderful that I can switch my attention to isn't it!! I have packing to think about, last minute paperwork, and more fun that that I can look forward to seeing our friends that will be joining us.
It's quite wonderful really --- 4 years ago on my 50th b-day, life was totally sucky for me and I do mean at the bottom of the barrel --- my marriage seemed to be imploding, as did my teenage daughter and I was feeling at my honest to God lowest low of all time.
However, I had planned on taking a cruise for my 50th, and I went forward with it and what a blessing that turned out to be in more ways than one. There's lots more to tell about that story, but to keep it anywhere close to the point of this posting -- I was assigned to a dinner table of 7 other people who were also traveling alone.
As it turned out, we all became fast friends the first night and hung out together for the rest of the cruise. Three of us even managed to stay aboard a second week due to a very special deal that Holland America offered the last few days of the first cruise. Well the upshot of all that is that my two friends Andy from Canada, and Clausie from Germany have stayed in very close touch and this upcoming cruise will the 4th birthday cruise I have shared with them AND the last 3 my husband has rounded out the party I am very happy to report!. A few other folks from some of the other 3 cruises will be joining us, in addition to some "newbies" but we all know we will have a ball and make some wonderful new memories to add to our scrapbooks!
So on that note I will end -- since I feel better and also need to get ready for work! See --- it really is that simple to change a thought -- and by doing that now, this morning, I can be very confident that the rest of my day will go a whole lot easier than it might have!
Thanks for listening! : )
Blessings, and
NAMASTE
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